12:49 PM
fly away from the problems...come on i know i can do it...fly,just fly away...
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
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11:45 PM
what happens when u cry ur pain away till u have no more tears? u feel worse so bad u'll wanna die...
Sunday, May 28, 2006
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5:55 PM
i've been tryin to persuade my parents to let me learn motorbiking at 18 since its like a year away and like its super costly to learn driving. haven't really check out much it cost to learn and how much a bike cost but yea there's like a year to do it but the important thing is to convince my parents to, its super hard since like 3 of my cousins have gotten into accidents wid motorbikes, not to mention one of them broke his jaw...ah well no harm trying i guess so yea if they dun allow then too bad i guess haha... common tests are next week so yea kinda scared since its like supposedly quite impt., something like if u dun pass one module u'll have to retake it. hmm....
http://www.hlcorp.com.sg/motorcycles/catalogue_main.asp# oh yea this is my dream bike..check it out it ozzes out the word sexiness man..
Saturday, May 27, 2006
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2:18 PM
one comment, just one comment about myself;my self confidence is the size of a mustard seed, and for those who dunno how big a mustard seed is, its extremely small....
have u ever had a fear, a fear caused by no human being, more of like caused by an incident, and that fear cripples u in one aspect of life, and u're always scared to do wat u did in that incident just because of the fear and the bad experience, ironic isn't it, u're afraid of something non existent, untoucable, almost just too frustrating isn't it?
high school crushes and relationships, many tok about it as if its the highlight of ur life, the coolest thing u'll ever go through, the most u'll ever learn from, but if u ask me i dun see anything glam or anything 'cool' about it, why, ask that fear in me, ask that fear consuming me. I'm retreating, back into my corner, where i just sit and ponder sad thoughts, weeping away.
i just wonder how people can actually go through so many bgrs and still stand up for the next one,like wat almost immediately after one fails. i know i wouldn't be able to if it does happen to me, its just to painfull after one, i dunno its just all so painfull, i'm still recovering, its a feeling of the presence of an almightly big hole in ur heart, making u gasp for air, making u loose blood by the breath. Sounds painfully right, yea thats why i undertsand whats it like to fall asleep in tears, its because the past held so much future, so much potential but when the incident happened, its as if the step she took away from me was like takin a shot to my heart froma shotgun, and u're lying there on the floor, blood everywhere, and u're somewhat alive, gasping and gasping for air, more bloods spills out as the seconds tick away. Thats how i feel sometimes.
imagine being a ghost of society,how sad it would be, how people walk through u, and u wish u could stretch out and say hi but no, u can't, why? Coz people choose to ignore u.
so much emotions isn't it, yet i live to see the rising sun of the next day, why? Its a GOD given strength i tell u, no lies, it is. But the emotions are just unavoidable.
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emotions thoughts and feelings that i go through,the life that boy in the corner, yes that boy is me...
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
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7:15 PM
so yea another week of poly...the project just gets more and more,not to mention homework, and expectations...plus exams are like 3 weeks from now, plus i can't go for silence and solitude...just sux man...i've just realised i've lost the motivation for life,(i emphasize motivation not will one huge difference). there's just nothin to look forward to, there used to be church to look forward to every weekend,but now its just all so distant, nothin to look forward to in school, nobody to look to, its just all so how do u put it, lonely?yea sure i have friends but yea not confiding friends i tell ya...life just gets tougher for me.......
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i walk a lonely road
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
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9:09 PM
poly is fun when u minus out all those friendship politics if ya know wat i mean....many people would agree if they understood which view point i was coming from, i mean all it takes is just one rumor or a grp of people who are willing to make ur life difficult as a grp of ppl and there u have it , a shitty life,ah well wat to do its all human dynamics i tell ya...GOD made all of us different just gotta learn to forgive,accept,and then love them as friends....
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
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11:52 PM
ah well i finally got internet at home coz i'm stealing wireless connection from my neighbour again haha..well if the guy i'm stealing wireless from's readin this thanks for the wireless...haha well poly's gd still just that yea church feels different to me now like i've less time for it thus the lack of invlovement...well... rugby training was fun just that i injured my leg but yea recovered already
Sunday, May 07, 2006
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5:44 PM
ah well had extra lessons today (macroeconomics tutorial to be exact)haha seemed like the teacher didn't come at first but yea he came in the end but we left and went back to class...there's a lil annoying guy in my class shan't reveal my name but yea he's the die die wanna answer all the questions type damn funny...haha anways class seems kinda fun la...gtg now bye!
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
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12:17 AM
oh man havin a viva la bam marathon now haha watchin all the stupid stuff they do damn funny la...haha i'm startin to get bored of it like my eyes are pain from all that television on my laptop hahah...ah well holiday tomorrow,hope have something to do tmr before soccer...ah well back to more viva la bam, i'm aiming to finish watchin till season 4 coz i've already finished watchin season 1 & 5 hahah...peace out man..
Monday, May 01, 2006
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