8:50 PM
rugby training
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cell grps.
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movie with family
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3 plus am dinner
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soccer at 8am the next day
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a very very, VERY tired dean(highly not recommended to try)
Saturday, September 23, 2006
//flow thru' you
8:50 PM
sometimes u just find some happiness in misery its not a great deal of contentment but its enough to help u look on the brighter side of life
Thursday, September 21, 2006
//flow thru' you
10:00 PM
i wonder,this year , have i really been counting my blessings, and being contented with it or am i just this total pain in the ass being choosy and whiny of how things unfold. many choices i've taken i've come to regret and love at the same time, its just too complicated, its confusing me inside. i know i can't take it no longer, for i am on the brink of insanity because of the outcome and impact of these choices. and what is worse is that this life is full of choices, and u just can't stop choosing suddenly, but that is what i want to do, for i am fearful, fearful that these choices would become repeats of past mistakes, adding on to my woes , worries, and sadness. call me a coward, call me a loser if u must, i just can't take it no more these thoughts are just driving me insane, but leave me be you must , for i'm ment to walk this path alone,for u deserve none but the sunshine , the roses and all the finer things in life, its the obvious. could i just fade away, just fade away into the darkness, where i can be left alone, where my troubles would be left alone......
my thoughts in words
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
//flow thru' you
10:14 PM
the happiest man around is always the saddest man on the inside, everybody knows that , well at least i know that...i have to, its me...i look at myself and think, " dean wat a mess u are, wid all those inside thoughts"
Sunday, September 10, 2006
//flow thru' you
5:51 PM
well i'm finally 17 i must say haha...and yea my bday was like over 3 days haha day 1 wedenesday zhi wei derrick me and chin woo went walk walk, then we went to watch the simgapore china match haha 0-0 but yea gd experience and atmostphere , after that we went over to derrick's hosue , satyed over and yea left at 730 in the morning to rush home to get my stuff to go to sentosa. it sure was fun at sentosa(with carlton , issac, zhi wei , derrick, selwyn, josca, chin woo, me, scott, and joey), just the sun, sea and sand , totally loved it altough this year's celebration was the same as last year, after that we (zhi wei, derrick, selwyn, josca, me)went for steamboat at marina, and yea went home after that feeling rather burnt and tired... the actual day itself was kinda slack, relaxing around, went for training, went for cell, went to macs wid the cell ppl and yea went for dinner after that....
many thanks to those who smsed me near 12 am on friday, u sure kept me awake, james fu thanks for the call at 12 on the dot, u woke me up, those who wished me early thanks too, those who wished me late it ok u still managed to wish me yea, those who didn't wish me , its alright i'm not a die hard must wish me happy bday person, its ok..haha and yea special thanks to maurice and kaye who got me a present , really nice of u two, it was my only and best present haha, thanks once again..
Saturday, September 09, 2006
//flow thru' you
6:10 PM
fRoM tHe iNsIdE oUt
A thousand times I’ve failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should i stumble again
I’m caught in Your grace
Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame
Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame
In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love You from the inside out (repeat)
Everlasting Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
//flow thru' you
4:15 PM
i knew my dad was slightly insane haha in a gd way lol...yesterday after dinner he brought me and my sis to this restaurant/bar at the top of mount faber called The Jewel Box for some after dinner treats haha and it turned out to be a very cool place with great ambience and all dimly lit and all basically a very romantic background but yea it was kinda like nice for slackin for me haha...it turned out that my dad brought us there for drinking hahaha...i mean how oldly cool was that haha but yea free drinks so yea hahah...he ordered this bottle of white dessert wine called late harvest riesling hahah it tasted great haha but yea an altogether odd yet great experience...
Saturday, September 02, 2006
//flow thru' you
