8:48 AM
i was watchin this Tv programme called girls out loud yesterday with my sis yesterday, and the topic was on plastic surgery so basically, those 2 girl hostest went to get botox jabs and one even went to the extent of getting a nose job, and it has really got me thinking, why are these women sooooooo dumb! its like so much pain,and think about its just for a few praises from your friends and family members... i mean couldn't you even like be contented with what God has given you? its not as if you have some facial defects like missing a lip or an eye.. i mean only then would plastic surgery come in handy, its ironic how this fallen world has taken something that was made for the better of mankind, in this case plastic surgery, which was originally used for facial reconstruction, and use it for selfish reasons.... just so sad, here's a shoutout to those rich people out there thinking of getting some "facial beautifying", why not use the money and donate it to some carity, or give the money to someone who really needs it, someone who has a broken jaw and needs the plastic surgery.....
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
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9:26 PM
oh my sons exams so soon i think i'm gonna stress out and really burn out the way my module organisational behaviour describes burn out.. hiaz back to studyin bye!
Monday, January 29, 2007
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9:32 PM
ah so fast and this week's over!! well its good and bad i guess... at yi xian's now watchin madagasca hahaha super funny.. bye!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
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12:50 PM
To Him be the glory, forever and ever amen
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
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9:34 AM
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so close to exams plus so many other things happening before that...i feel as if its gonna be one damn bumpy roller coaster ride till the end of exams, but yet again, hasn't my whole life been one...? hiaz i think i'm gonna be sad.....T.T
Monday, January 22, 2007
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1:49 PM
hmm the weekend was terrible, filled with emo moments man, sadness, tiredness, a little bit of burn out, and of course the all time" fave" of temporary depression....i guess it was mainly due to the tiredness from that hectic week...hmmm well got one more test and one more presentation to go for this week, then i'll be free, and off to my studying for the EOYs...hmm its really got me thinking how life's actually one big rush, and how time which flies so fast just makes it worse, no time to stop, relax and smell the roses...
currently sitting at the stands of the sports complex just chilling.. four guys(zhi wei , brice, wei xuan, me) and a guitar...hmm feel rather relaxed, which is gd, stress relief session :)
as i countdown the days to the exams, the days dun get better, they just get worse with every added event.......... (T.T)
Monday, January 15, 2007
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1:29 PM
well here's some stats for thought... i failed my second stats test by 3 marks, a 27/60, but i passed overall, with a 28/50 for my first test, and yea do the calculation, a 55/110, which means i only got a mere 20% out of the 40% for the Common test, and i need to get another 30% to get a pass, yes a pass...so lets say the teacher ismean and decides that dean is a nonsensical boy who doesn't deserve any class participation marks, so thats 0% out of the 10%..thats a total of 20% out of the 50% so far... so the final year test is 50%, which means to get my 30% required for me to pass, i need a 60/100, yea i know it sounds easy, but check this fact out, the passing mark of End of year stats are usually moderated so low, to help majority of ngee ann students pass, the top boys usually get a pass, so yea how am i gonna get my 60? i dunno, futhermore i'll have to aim higher than a 60 to make room for draw backs, so lets say a 75, thats insane to reach man... i'm freaking out now, the probability of dean retaining one year for stats has just went up, about 0.87, so yea God help me on this as i start my studying for the big EOY
Thursday, January 11, 2007
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2:35 AM
another one of sleepless nights again.. its like 235 am in the morning and i have a business stats test tmr, and yet i can't sleep.. no, its not because i'm too afraid to sleep, i guess i just can't...
i hope its not one of my insomnia streaks, i have this history of not being able to sleep properly for weeks at a go, resulting in a cranky, unhappy me...
as i laid in bed at around 1130, with my eyes closed, i started to think about my so called "calling" to step up as a worship leader, this "calling" happened some time back, in sec 3, it was after camp, and i was already serving in music ministry, and some feeling inside me kept making me consider to step up as a worship leader, but back then my walk with God wasn't really great, so i didn't dare to, and so i just put that thought away, far away in the corner of my mind, not bothering about it. I guess i sorta put it in this small box, hoping not to open it again, but the amazing thing is that at the start of this year, this box reopened itself, and the question of whether i should step up rose up once again, so i told God, if its really His will for me to fullfil that "calling", circumstances would somehow make way, and i would get a shot at worship leading..
i told joel that i might step up this year as a worship leader, with maurice as a co worship leader, to help ease the stage fright that i think i would face haha yea i do get a lil stage fright...right so back to where i was.. as i laying on my bed, semi concious,i started to see this picture of me, and the band on the drama theater stage, worshiping, singing lift up your eyes. With this my sub-concious mind went on to ask for a theme for the worship, an this word came to my mind, and it was forgiveness, i dunno, but for me i felt as if this whole incident was a way that God was trying to tell me that that calling was of Him, and that He in His time is preparing me for this chance to bring His people to worship, by giving me a theme to work with, thank You Lord, how amazing are You and Your works, so amazing that i cry out to thee holy,holy,holy is the Lord God almighty!
Lift up Your eyes all of heaven's in worship
Angels rejoice and the clouds will be filled
With the wonder of Your name
With the wonder of Your name
The train of his robe fills the temple with glory
Heavenly hosts fall before Him in worship
Crying holy Holy, holy, is the Lord God Almighty
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
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9:45 PM
oh my mums i so dun wanna go to school tmr but yea ah wells no choice i guess
Monday, January 08, 2007
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5:50 PM
ah thank God the weekend's finally here man...really really greatfull, since the first week of school was more of like a wake up call to reality, project deadlines, test, Common Test results, and all, was just quite stressed during the 1st and 2nd day of school, but yea, in Him i found comfort, and in Him i felt as if the stress was gone, so yea glory to God, for He does wonders.
well played soccer this morning so yea i'm happy, made some new friends from soccer. after that i had study grp lunch. it was just great to have a short catch up session, although not all of u guys were there. went to maurice's house after that and we had MM com meeting, it went great.so yea thats pretty much my day for now, its only 555pm so yea i'll prob slack at home i guess later alrights gtg now, bye bye
Praise Him, for He is the one true God...
Saturday, January 06, 2007
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7:21 PM
ah wells finally found a skin for my blog but haven't really done it properly..hiaz school has really been a mad rush and i thank God for the weekend to come by again so fast, or else i think i would have just stressed out man.. next week's gonna be heck of a week for me ,and i'll need all the strength that i can find, so yea God i really need Your strength to carry me through the next week, just like Yo've always done without even me knowing.
I'm really greatfull for Him just guiding me through all my times in school so far, especially through the exam periods, i really admit that all my results so far for all my test since the start of the year have really been God given, considered the amount of effort i put in.. i'm really super greatfull for that help God.. thank goodness all the results i've gotten back so far have been passes, and no failures, esp for business statistics paper, i so expected to fail it, even my teacher says she's surprised i've passed so yea wells phews....
just one more last paper to get back and thats organisational behaviour, so yea i think i should be pretty ok with that...
here's my 'problems' next week:
1)business statistics test on tuesday
2)CIP presentation on wednesday
3)on the spot speech presentation on thursday
4)CATs assignment 2 due on friday
5)CATs presentation
6)trainings every wednesday and fridays
Thursday, January 04, 2007
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9:14 AM
oh my goodness its the 1st day of the new term man...just sux.. i can feel the monday blues on a wednesday, how bad is that? seems like this year really started off on a bad note, so much stress and troubles within the first 72 hours of the new year...how great , how great.. i just hope the year just slowly bulids up to the better, so i can say the same as i did for this year, like i did for the last year... hmmmm ah wells maybe i'm just being too negative, maybe i'm just not looking on the brighter side of life, maybe i'm just not counting my blessings, maybe i should do those, and just leave it up to GOD, He sure can do wonders and i know, so yea time to just leave it to Him.
my new year resolutions:
1)do QT often
2)curse lesser
3)save more money for holiday trips
4)get a new bass
5)learn to apreciate life better
6)be nicer to my family members(this resolution has been carried forward from past 2 years)
7)lastly, be more deligent in my studies(no more play play play, more go home study, study, study)
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
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