8:59 PM
well here's an update on dean's life, i've recently acquired a sencond home, and its called derrick's house hahaha i've been spending a lot of time there hanging out wid derrick and zhi wei lol, the overnight stays and the fifa 07 matches...well...went to the beach with zhi wei and derrick on thrusday,came home extra burnt lol...
friday, went looking for a job, and managed to get one at this hong kong food place at cine lvl 2 called xin wang, so yea i start this friday, do visit! hahah
Saturday, went to play soccer in the morning, then mm meeting, after which was watching live bands, mainly brice's band, at club DXO, full of screamo bands, EWW, then went to yi xian's for new year visiting, gd food, gd company, managed to meet with lisa there haha haven't talked to her for quite some time...
Sunday, went to church, then slacked at ben phua's house like old times haha gd memories lol...then went for church games, after which i went to meet zhi and derrick to go to changi airport to send yi xian off... derric's bro domenic decided to follow so yea the 4 of us wanted to take a cab, but ended up getting a lift from derrick's all so nice dad, hahah it was the most fun ride to the airport, coz..... we sat in a van lol.... dom sat in front and derrick, zhi wei and me relaxed in the back, the floor was carpetted and there was cushions lol... cool view too from the back window, 30 mins ride, full of emo memories, dunno why, must be the songs i listen to... well so yea arrived at the airport, met up with yi xian, his family, zheng yang, xavier, chang, prash, and yea saw him off... after that, we took a lift from chang and went to holland v for supper , had crystal jade, then went to derrick's house to slack and stay over, it was like 2 then... woke up today morning slacked a while at derrick's then went to town with derrick, zhi wei and selwyn to watch letters from(or is it to? heh not sure)iwo jima, then came home... so tired now hahaha, so yea gonna go relax a lil then slp..
Monday, February 26, 2007
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8:38 PM
have u ever had the feeling that you just made one wrong choice, which the well being of your life practically depended on it, and there's no undo button to this, well i think i did just that, and now i'm living the opportunity cost...hiaz....Thursday, February 22, 2007
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10:18 PM
the words that were said, and situation meant to be accepted as it is were just too painfull, too painfull, as tears rolled down my eyes, for no appearent reason. It was just unbearable, for the pain inside could not be held back by the strong outside......i cried, i just cried my heart out......Monday, February 19, 2007
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7:50 PM
well i've been uber bored these fews days slackin at home, nothing to do, yea i'll die of bordem some day, i swear....
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1:19 PM
many thoughts, just many many thoughts.. bout my relevance to people/ person...Sunday, February 18, 2007
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1:19 PM
many thoughts, just many many thoughts.. bout my relevance to people/ person...
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7:49 PM
I've came to a conclusion and breakthrough in human psychological understanding, i have a new theory called guilt recognition, I've realised that everybody does feel guilt when ever they commit something unethical, its whether the person, depending on degree of morality, chooses to rebuke guilt or take a longer time to realise and give in to guilt and then do something about it.... hehWednesday, February 14, 2007
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9:51 PM
no child or man should have to go through dean's life, its just one malicious grueling life....no one should have to do it....Tuesday, February 13, 2007
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9:48 PM
ah wells so here i am, the night before my big test for my first year in poly, the EOYs, and i'm thinking oh my sons, i'm so gonna die, but u know what, so what if i die for this test man, i gave it my best, i know i put in my most, but what's important here is that God's incharge of the outcome, so no matter what the outcome is, i gladly accept, for i know He only provides what is best for me, and in that i find peace and comfort, and in that i am calm and prepared for the EOYs......many thanks to those who wished me all the best for the EOYs, appreciated it a lot,ah wells better get some rest, wake up a lil early tmr, and do some last minute studyin...bye!
Sunday, February 11, 2007
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2:45 PM
like 3 more days till the first day of exams and i'm still not scared hiaz this is really not gd...took a look at the revision paper posted online for stats and was like what the heck is this....didn't even recognize a single thing i tell ya this is bad... ah wells...i think i've put in my best in studyin stats already and if its still not enough, maybe its just ment for me to do the sub again ah wells....Thursday, February 08, 2007
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11:03 AM
i feel better now like stable but yea, remnants of the bitterness can still be found dwelling within myself, ah well its bearable i guess...i feel as if i lost a battle to self condemnation, as i'm just so vulnerable to its attacks now...hiaz enough nonsense from the inside man i shall just go back to continuos probability distributions, smapling distributions and more business statistical nonsenseTuesday, February 06, 2007
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12:51 AM
right now i'm just feeling like i'm the worst piece of cow dung the world has ever seen, i'm just feeling so low and useless that i even feel that the soil, is a thousand and one ways more usefull than me.. i dunno why but i've just been in this state of lowness, where i just feel that i really dun deserve anything, be it friends or my worldly posseions... i feel like crap to put it straight...i'm not saying this to get attention in anyway, but i'm just seriously seriously feeling so shitty....so yea to all the haters out there who might think i'm doin this for more attention(if there's any)just wanna say thank you i feel that i should be hated, coz i'm a crap guy, average joe, whatever...........
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10:13 AM
You Are Bud Light |
 You're not fussy when it comes to beer. If someone hands it to you, you'll drink it. In fact, you don't understand beer snobbery at all. It all tastes the same once you're drunk! You're an enthusiastic drinker, and you can often be found at your neighborhood bar. You're pretty good at holding your liquor too - you've had lots of experience. |
You Are 48% Slacker |
 You are a bit of a slacker - though you can pull it together and live a somewhat normal life. If you're young, this is probably phase you'll outgrow. And if you're already grown up, you need to get off the couch a bit more! |
Your Stress Level is: 46% |
 You are somewhat prone to stress, especially when life gets hard. When things are good, you resist stressing over little problems. But when things are difficult, you tend to freak out and find it hard to calm down. |
You Are From Saturn |
 You're steady, organizes, and determined to achieve your dreams. You tend to play it conservative, going by the rules (at least the practical ones). You'll likely reach the top. And when you do, you'll be honorable and responsible. Focus on happiness. Don't let your goals distract you from fun! Don't be too set in your ways, and you'll be more of a success than you ever dreamed of. |
You Are 11 Years Old |
 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
Monday, February 05, 2007
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5:18 PM
well well kinda happy now finally got to install the wireless router that i bought 2 days ago and yea i must say it took me heck a lot of persuasion to convince my sis to just pause her download and let me install...hiaz lets just say she's persistant in making sure things go her way...ah wells, so now i'm left to doing my last thing of my to do list for the day, which is well STUDYING...ah well it ain't that bad i mean considering the fact that i've grown to like it well for the time being i hope heh....ah wells back to studyin heh bye!Saturday, February 03, 2007
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12:58 AM
study, i'm just gonna study the jumbled thoughts away... just mug, and be lost in mugging... wat a wonderful subsitute to dealing with the jumbled thoughts... i really dunno what my thoughts are recently, but there's just a common direction that its bringing me to, and that is sadness, the thoughts are just somewhere between self condemnation and self questioning...i just dun feel like talking no more, just shut myself up, and think more before i say something, to not offend anyone without knowing it myself...
i'm just in a bad spot now i just need to run away to a beach and think about nothingness................................
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12:34 AM
so much sadness, sadness that brings tears, sadness of many current issues,like how corrupted this world is, how much it has affected everyone,
both young and old, how sad, how sad, how i want to run away from the many issues,
run away from the inner demon, self condemnation, how i wish i could just run far,
far far away from the hurting, from the frustration, and just relax, and just rebuild my strength,
Lord i need Thy strength, to face this world that has lost all morals, so wun You just help me this once, like You've always had, am and will, Lord i just need to seek rest in your arms......
fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars............
Friday, February 02, 2007
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8:55 PM
hmmm one week to EOY exams and like i'm not scared..hmmm has its gd and bad points.. i think its good coz maybe God's calming me down on te inside without me knowing, so that i can concentrate, but on te other hand i tend to perform under pressure heh so yea i really have mixed feelings about this whole before EOY exams... well thanks to all those people who have been convincing me to study , namely krisi, maurice, kaye,zhi wei, and many more srry if i forgot, heh its really got me to have a more must study attitude, so yea thanks guys...Thursday, February 01, 2007
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