tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-60309812011-04-22T13:55:01.497+08:00the life....the setbacks....the regrets....life as it is.....Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comBlogger2511100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-65600557112841109372007-06-01T01:20:00.001+08:002007-06-01T01:22:39.437+08:00READ THIS NOTICE: As of today, 1st june 07 dean has moved to http://thewordstrust.blogspot.com/, so click HERE to get there.Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-53676103188695009402007-05-28T09:19:00.000+08:002007-05-28T09:21:09.194+08:00well i haven't been blogging for sometime, due to school and the fact that i'm a uber lazy bugger heh...well common tests are coming up next in about a week so yea i'll be M.I.A. from blogging for sometime again... stress stressDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-40138186424905454882007-05-13T21:18:00.000+08:002007-05-13T21:24:27.818+08:00well its a sunday, and i'm meant to be relaxed but yea i'm somehow very tired and grumpy...hiaz stress i guess stress.... wells on a seperate note, a late shoutout to mei ling, happy bday, thanks for inviting us to your lil celebration thing at the changi SAFRA resort, it sure was fun. wells wells what else,hmmmm arh yes project deadlines this week, ah shitty nonsense i hate those...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-12462591105772000082007-05-10T23:12:00.000+08:002007-05-10T23:15:08.022+08:00currently just feeling sooooooo shitty, depressed insecure days are back again, i can just feel it coming, Lord help me.............Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1699709951780588142007-05-01T22:54:00.000+08:002007-05-01T22:55:56.110+08:00well labour day was = lunch and walk walk in town + kicking practise at CCAB + watching tokyo drift at derrick's.... heh super slack, super gd, gd for destressing heh....Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-21787573962473262152007-04-28T12:30:00.000+08:002007-04-28T12:40:39.125+08:00well had rado BBQ session yesterday at ECP haha was quite fun to put it in short hahaha wells...gd time of fun , gd food, and gd company haha yea... on a seperate note, was just thinking about this the other day, what if all your friends were just acting to accept you, but behind your back you're the topic of their insults and butt of all their jokes. Well i admit i've somewhat done it to people Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-7855243339209581672007-04-22T02:07:00.000+08:002007-04-22T02:11:27.003+08:00well made a last minute decision to meet zheng yang at wala for drinks and watch the soccer match haha well so there went homework time, and in came a half pint of beer, 1 B-52 shooter and 1 snowball, and lots of food...haha.... its 2 am, and i half to be in church at 730 to helf set up and all... hiaz stupid acs(barker) SYF ppl, making me and joel's job a hell of a tiresome one... well God Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-81130858371623702692007-04-20T16:49:00.000+08:002007-04-20T16:56:58.163+08:00well waiting for training to start, currently slackin under some shelter just 5meters away from the block 50 field, staring the sunset, semi day dreaming, and wondering what is my purpose in poly, and what i really wanna get outta it...i guess i've thought about the first part of the question before, but i've not really considered what i want to get out of this 3 years of education, and i think Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-82443279449704469862007-04-19T22:35:00.000+08:002007-04-19T22:57:09.340+08:00betrayed by the emotions, played by the feelings, oh how deceiving the human mind can be...OK that had totally no relevance to me haha, for i'm happily living my life, without much doubt or worries, well thank God, just dunno how long this care free life can last though haha...wells had my first IS class of the year and i must say i'm lucky to get a teacher who's super friendly and who's Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-27862244223331439742007-04-19T12:12:00.000+08:002007-04-19T12:31:10.194+08:00to be stabbed in the back by a person you thought was a friend without knowing that you were stabbed, and then finally realising the truth about the matter, oh what pain.....Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-57087943073569783192007-04-13T23:06:00.000+08:002007-04-13T23:11:47.038+08:00well 3 fun and exciting days of BAOC are finally over, and i must say it was a blast, full of fun and good memories. Met new people, new friends, and yea had a lot of fun heh, see the emphasis on fun haha... i also won the award for best SC(student co-ordinator) for my group, so yea thanks rene, kevin and audris for choosing me as the best SC, i owe u guys one... oh yes and there were lots of Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-5258869975874714072007-04-08T19:26:00.000+08:002007-04-08T19:37:42.580+08:00imagine if there was a pause button in life, in which all living things just comes to a halt when pressed, and only the person who pressed it is allowed freedom of movement. If such a button existed, wouldn't it just be great, walking through the streets, looking at everything at a standstill. If i could have that chance i'll press that button, take my time to reflect on my hectic life, reflect Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-33521242562732768102007-04-06T23:14:00.000+08:002007-04-06T23:36:38.144+08:00haha ive been in school everyday(just noticed), busy with all the orientation stuff hahaha... and i've found this cool game to play on miniclipgames its called skywire haha go check it out man!Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-35388186465577315512007-04-03T23:51:00.000+08:002007-04-03T23:59:18.777+08:00ah wells lets see the stuff that i did today, go repair my laptop at jurong, which was super far, waited for like 1 and a hlaf hours for the queue to reach my turn then waited another 2 hours for them to repiar which was quite fast, i went with zhi wei btw, wells went to school to help out at baoc after that, painted a lil, drew a lil, then went for soccer at barker with the aussie ppl who came Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-76689286237585402182007-03-28T21:53:00.000+08:002007-03-28T22:09:28.765+08:00just a thought that i thought that i should share(you was directed at myself in the thoughts):when was the last time you sat down to count your blessings,to thank God for the little ups in life, to thank Him for that little spur of joy,when was the last time you marveled at His wonderful creations,and stop to sing praises to Him for creating such wonders, including yourselfwhen was the last time Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-21879416429240792922007-03-26T23:19:00.000+08:002007-03-26T23:24:31.078+08:00hey so just to let u guys out there know,i AM alive, i have't succumbed to suicide and yea i'm not emo no more, just feeling a lil bit... whats that word.... mischevious, yupp yupp dean's pranking days are back watch out people, mark my words, no matter which continent u live onDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-62332010486125167032007-03-12T23:17:00.000+08:002007-03-12T23:23:18.221+08:00well today was the first time i've been home in like 3 days, have been crashing over at derrick's then joel tan's haha well real tiring slept at like 4 for both nights and had to wake up early for church and work the next day...well kinda blur now from the tiredness...was just thinking bout my life while cabbing back, and yea i guess i've really been somewhat ignoring some of the choices that GodDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-17322961676710605242007-03-10T00:58:00.000+08:002007-03-10T01:00:28.430+08:00well an update on life, its insignificant and its been dreadfull, i really really really know what's the definition of a shitty life now....greatness just greatness, my life is a joke...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-30605760195819977752007-03-01T22:22:00.000+08:002007-03-01T22:27:41.502+08:00its funny how God keeps showing me that He's always providing for me, and it always happens at the most unexpected times, and for that I'm truly thankful, and I'm learning, to entirely depend on Him, and to stop pursuing things aimlessly....Oh what an amazing God we have, and surely He is to be glorified...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-77172468114402503692007-02-26T20:59:00.000+08:002007-02-26T21:29:47.414+08:00well here's an update on dean's life, i've recently acquired a sencond home, and its called derrick's house hahaha i've been spending a lot of time there hanging out wid derrick and zhi wei lol, the overnight stays and the fifa 07 matches...well...went to the beach with zhi wei and derrick on thrusday,came home extra burnt lol...friday, went looking for a job, and managed to get one at this hong Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-33359114929692281102007-02-22T20:38:00.000+08:002007-02-22T20:41:44.934+08:00have u ever had the feeling that you just made one wrong choice, which the well being of your life practically depended on it, and there's no undo button to this, well i think i did just that, and now i'm living the opportunity cost...hiaz....Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-19447215597011323362007-02-19T22:18:00.000+08:002007-02-19T22:23:12.732+08:00the words that were said, and situation meant to be accepted as it is were just too painfull, too painfull, as tears rolled down my eyes, for no appearent reason. It was just unbearable, for the pain inside could not be held back by the strong outside......i cried, i just cried my heart out......Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-73195558044678481682007-02-19T19:50:00.000+08:002007-02-19T19:52:53.836+08:00well i've been uber bored these fews days slackin at home, nothing to do, yea i'll die of bordem some day, i swear....Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-78473149905634272232007-02-18T13:19:00.001+08:002007-02-18T13:27:05.369+08:00many thoughts, just many many thoughts.. bout my relevance to people/ person...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-50674477616230475532007-02-18T13:19:00.000+08:002007-02-18T13:26:40.025+08:00many thoughts, just many many thoughts.. bout my relevance to people/ person...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-24812558389284800642007-02-14T19:49:00.000+08:002007-02-14T19:55:20.880+08:00I've came to a conclusion and breakthrough in human psychological understanding, i have a new theory called guilt recognition, I've realised that everybody does feel guilt when ever they commit something unethical, its whether the person, depending on degree of morality, chooses to rebuke guilt or take a longer time to realise and give in to guilt and then do something about it.... hehDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-73856064869170896992007-02-13T21:51:00.000+08:002007-02-11T21:55:21.487+08:00no child or man should have to go through dean's life, its just one malicious grueling life....no one should have to do it....Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-4062482339786192512007-02-11T21:48:00.000+08:002007-02-08T14:48:02.150+08:00ah wells so here i am, the night before my big test for my first year in poly, the EOYs, and i'm thinking oh my sons, i'm so gonna die, but u know what, so what if i die for this test man, i gave it my best, i know i put in my most, but what's important here is that God's incharge of the outcome, so no matter what the outcome is, i gladly accept, for i know He only provides what is best for me, Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-48245329926112837542007-02-08T14:45:00.000+08:002007-02-06T11:08:40.837+08:00like 3 more days till the first day of exams and i'm still not scared hiaz this is really not gd...took a look at the revision paper posted online for stats and was like what the heck is this....didn't even recognize a single thing i tell ya this is bad... ah wells...i think i've put in my best in studyin stats already and if its still not enough, maybe its just ment for me to do the sub again ahDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-67057883056896860992007-02-06T11:03:00.000+08:002007-02-06T11:08:41.174+08:00i feel better now like stable but yea, remnants of the bitterness can still be found dwelling within myself, ah well its bearable i guess...i feel as if i lost a battle to self condemnation, as i'm just so vulnerable to its attacks now...hiaz enough nonsense from the inside man i shall just go back to continuos probability distributions, smapling distributions and more business statistical Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-60891678807357232422007-02-06T00:51:00.000+08:002007-02-06T00:58:46.801+08:00right now i'm just feeling like i'm the worst piece of cow dung the world has ever seen, i'm just feeling so low and useless that i even feel that the soil, is a thousand and one ways more usefull than me.. i dunno why but i've just been in this state of lowness, where i just feel that i really dun deserve anything, be it friends or my worldly posseions... i feel like crap to put it straight...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-55923011319777554432007-02-05T10:13:00.000+08:002007-02-05T10:38:18.858+08:00You Are Bud LightYou're not fussy when it comes to beer. If someone hands it to you, you'll drink it.In fact, you don't understand beer snobbery at all. It all tastes the same once you're drunk!You're an enthusiastic drinker, and you can often be found at your neighborhood bar.You're pretty good at holding your liquor too - you've had lots of experience.What's Your Beer Personality?You Are 48% Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-6731688147987001972007-02-03T17:18:00.000+08:002007-02-03T17:21:58.370+08:00well well kinda happy now finally got to install the wireless router that i bought 2 days ago and yea i must say it took me heck a lot of persuasion to convince my sis to just pause her download and let me install...hiaz lets just say she's persistant in making sure things go her way...ah wells, so now i'm left to doing my last thing of my to do list for the day, which is well STUDYING...ah well Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-83939708309508162642007-02-03T00:58:00.000+08:002007-02-03T01:07:46.079+08:00study, i'm just gonna study the jumbled thoughts away... just mug, and be lost in mugging... wat a wonderful subsitute to dealing with the jumbled thoughts... i really dunno what my thoughts are recently, but there's just a common direction that its bringing me to, and that is sadness, the thoughts are just somewhere between self condemnation and self questioning...i just dun feel like talking noDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-20329269078307981622007-02-02T00:34:00.000+08:002007-02-02T00:44:17.790+08:00so much sadness, sadness that brings tears, sadness of many current issues,like how corrupted this world is, how much it has affected everyone,both young and old, how sad, how sad, how i want to run away from the many issues,run away from the inner demon, self condemnation, how i wish i could just run far,far far away from the hurting, from the frustration, and just relax, and just rebuild my Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-83495631438416574932007-02-01T20:55:00.000+08:002007-02-01T21:13:03.918+08:00hmmm one week to EOY exams and like i'm not scared..hmmm has its gd and bad points.. i think its good coz maybe God's calming me down on te inside without me knowing, so that i can concentrate, but on te other hand i tend to perform under pressure heh so yea i really have mixed feelings about this whole before EOY exams... well thanks to all those people who have been convincing me to study , Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-33492760674940616062007-01-30T08:48:00.000+08:002007-01-30T09:00:15.740+08:00i was watchin this Tv programme called girls out loud yesterday with my sis yesterday, and the topic was on plastic surgery so basically, those 2 girl hostest went to get botox jabs and one even went to the extent of getting a nose job, and it has really got me thinking, why are these women sooooooo dumb! its like so much pain,and think about its just for a few praises from your friends and Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1170077408549068662007-01-29T21:26:00.000+08:002007-01-29T21:30:08.566+08:00oh my sons exams so soon i think i'm gonna stress out and really burn out the way my module organisational behaviour describes burn out.. hiaz back to studyin bye!Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1169732572444225062007-01-25T21:32:00.000+08:002007-01-25T21:42:52.456+08:00ah so fast and this week's over!! well its good and bad i guess... at yi xian's now watchin madagasca hahaha super funny.. bye!Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1169528105935747002007-01-23T12:50:00.000+08:002007-01-23T12:55:05.963+08:00To Him be the glory, forever and ever amenDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1169429751987518822007-01-22T09:34:00.000+08:002007-01-22T09:35:52.006+08:00ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so close to exams plus so many other things happening before that...i feel as if its gonna be one damn bumpy roller coaster ride till the end of exams, but yet again, hasn't my whole life been one...? hiaz i think i'm gonna be sad.....T.TDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1168840847050740112007-01-15T13:49:00.000+08:002007-01-15T14:00:47.080+08:00hmm the weekend was terrible, filled with emo moments man, sadness, tiredness, a little bit of burn out, and of course the all time" fave" of temporary depression....i guess it was mainly due to the tiredness from that hectic week...hmmm well got one more test and one more presentation to go for this week, then i'll be free, and off to my studying for the EOYs...hmm its really got me thinking howDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1168494048302655632007-01-11T13:29:00.000+08:002007-01-11T13:40:48.316+08:00well here's some stats for thought... i failed my second stats test by 3 marks, a 27/60, but i passed overall, with a 28/50 for my first test, and yea do the calculation, a 55/110, which means i only got a mere 20% out of the 40% for the Common test, and i need to get another 30% to get a pass, yes a pass...so lets say the teacher ismean and decides that dean is a nonsensical boy who doesn't Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1168283833231155672007-01-09T02:35:00.000+08:002007-01-09T03:17:13.260+08:00another one of sleepless nights again.. its like 235 am in the morning and i have a business stats test tmr, and yet i can't sleep.. no, its not because i'm too afraid to sleep, i guess i just can't...i hope its not one of my insomnia streaks, i have this history of not being able to sleep properly for weeks at a go, resulting in a cranky, unhappy me...as i laid in bed at around 1130, with my Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1168264088054478282007-01-08T21:45:00.000+08:002007-01-08T21:48:08.066+08:00oh my mums i so dun wanna go to school tmr but yea ah wells no choice i guessDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1168077463929682402007-01-06T17:50:00.000+08:002007-01-06T17:57:43.943+08:00ah thank God the weekend's finally here man...really really greatfull, since the first week of school was more of like a wake up call to reality, project deadlines, test, Common Test results, and all, was just quite stressed during the 1st and 2nd day of school, but yea, in Him i found comfort, and in Him i felt as if the stress was gone, so yea glory to God, for He does wonders.well played Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1167910393952959592007-01-04T19:21:00.000+08:002007-01-04T19:33:13.970+08:00ah wells finally found a skin for my blog but haven't really done it properly..hiaz school has really been a mad rush and i thank God for the weekend to come by again so fast, or else i think i would have just stressed out man.. next week's gonna be heck of a week for me ,and i'll need all the strength that i can find, so yea God i really need Your strength to carry me through the next week, justDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1167787613406772482007-01-03T09:14:00.000+08:002007-01-03T09:26:53.423+08:00oh my goodness its the 1st day of the new term man...just sux.. i can feel the monday blues on a wednesday, how bad is that? seems like this year really started off on a bad note, so much stress and troubles within the first 72 hours of the new year...how great , how great.. i just hope the year just slowly bulids up to the better, so i can say the same as i did for this year, like i did for the Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1167555702391824052006-12-31T16:59:00.000+08:002006-12-31T17:01:42.403+08:00ah wells watch night service's tonight and i'm super tired la...at maurice's house now chilling later gonna head over to yi xian's ah wells gonna go rest now wake up at 7 bbDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1167050348581808062006-12-25T20:30:00.000+08:002006-12-25T20:39:08.606+08:00well christmas's finally here, and its good, and whats better is that the days leading up to it were as great... and so the new year draws in, and i ask myself, is this year complete?is it a year where i'll say hmm yea great year, everything was complete or would i go, oh how i wished i could have done this too in this year... well one answer, i believe this year is complete , with its many Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1166763392877267772006-12-22T12:51:00.000+08:002006-12-22T12:56:32.890+08:00christmas in 4 days!!!!!! oh my oh my i still have somemore last minute wrapping and stuff to do hahaha.... i'm like stonning at home waiting for time to pass so that the time for me to go town to meet zhi wei will come by sooner haha.. haha saw lynn yesterday with someone!!!hahahaahahDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1166641121644431112006-12-21T02:57:00.000+08:002006-12-21T02:58:41.660+08:00hahah at yi xian's house now, its like 3 am, just finished watching jackass 2 the movie damn funny man...hahah its like the bomb of all pranks in one movie hahaah watch it for kicks!!!hahahaDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1166532020462468522006-12-19T20:20:00.000+08:002006-12-19T20:40:20.476+08:00ah well finally in thew middle of the holiday and i can start to feel the pressure of school buliding up as the starting date draws nearer... the projects and tests and rugby season opening again... oh my, one more last push dean one more till that 3 month long vacation which spells freedom...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1165979320974114542006-12-13T11:03:00.000+08:002006-12-13T11:08:40.986+08:00u know what... today i woke up with a smile on my face, and i told myself, yea its finally over, and i've finally moved on...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1165930920636739482006-12-12T21:38:00.000+08:002006-12-12T21:42:00.660+08:00i finally got the closure. not what my desires wanted, but i'm still gratefull, thank you very much i appreciated you for being able to tell me finally when i asked. so yea now the chapter's finally completed with those last few words of closure, painfull, saddening yet i still smile, coz now i'm able to move on....thank you once again _ _ _ _i_Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1165911785370922112006-12-12T16:16:00.000+08:002006-12-12T16:23:05.383+08:00Yesterday night I took a trip down memory lane, thoughts of my past started flashing through my head, both happy and sad of course along came tears with those thoughts, I just couldn't hold them back... Too long have I been keeping my thoughts and emotions to myself, too long have I not spoken from my heart, too long have I been left confused, and too long have I been left unanswered , If you areDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1165763423159953292006-12-10T22:55:00.000+08:002006-12-10T23:10:23.170+08:00it just sucks man i tell you everyone's having fun and i'm stuck studyin (T.T)Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1165637309338510142006-12-09T11:54:00.000+08:002006-12-09T12:08:29.350+08:00i've got a smile on my face, and i believe its because one the many chapters of my life has finally came to an end, with a clourse that i'm happy with, what a great feeling it is, one of the many burdens on my mind finally released... it was definately one interesting chapter filled with emotional ups and downs, depressions and happy memories, i think i should call this specific chapter : dawsa ,Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1164971437394380722006-12-01T18:44:00.000+08:002006-12-01T19:10:37.413+08:00was busing home the other day and was just wondering wat is christmas really about?the present exchanges?the lovely light displays at orchad?spending that special holiday with your special someone?that nice family christmas dinner?that all so cool party at that all so trendy club?yes, it may seem as if any of the above could just replace the true meaning of christmas, or maybe for some of us it Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1164072407213242482006-11-21T09:22:00.000+08:002006-11-21T09:26:47.233+08:00ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i feel damn jacked la... thought there was O. B. class today even though i knew it was e learning coz i remembered that someone said that there was still class coz he wanted to check our tutorial so i went there and there was no class....shit man... so yea i'm like in the library slacking. Met jia xin while i was trying to find a seat in the libraryDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1163397521147845452006-11-13T13:56:00.000+08:002006-11-13T13:58:41.180+08:00ah well another quick post before i go for lecture... last night's match was seriously sad case la stupid liverpool what the heck are u poos doing man... i watch also stress man got home like 3 15 in the morning after the match, and had to wake up today morning at 7 couldn't wake up la luckily i still managed to reach school on time... gtg now lecture's starting bb..Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1162801996501842212006-11-06T16:31:00.000+08:002006-11-06T16:33:16.513+08:00ah well i'm like one hour plus early for training and yea already in training gear...wanted go down to the field early to practise kicking but there's some touch rug. class going on... (-_-")Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1162657419529528692006-11-05T00:20:00.000+08:002006-11-05T00:23:39.543+08:00where thoughts are inpossible to be turned into words, you've just gotta be in the thinkers mind to understand it.....ah well i finally get to stay at home during a saturday, feels so good to finally have time to just sit home watch some tv, relax and watch the day go by, plus its my new house so yea feeling greatDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1162430043764589422006-11-02T09:07:00.000+08:002006-11-02T09:14:03.870+08:00yesterday's rugby match against tp was a gd match to watch, sadly i couldn't play because of my damned shoulder...but yea i'm glad to say those who played definately put their best to it...ah well got b.stats tutorial to attend now...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1162171521962232862006-10-30T09:22:00.000+08:002006-10-30T09:25:21.980+08:00school school school....sooooooo boring i''m just dying here....Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1161838003255530402006-10-26T12:45:00.000+08:002006-10-26T12:46:43.270+08:00ah well i know i haven't blogged in a while, damn lazy to...ah well its back to school as usual, and like rugby season starts tmr argh....die sia....slackin in the library waiting for lecture to start oh well wats new, its all that same old routine with slight new twists here and there...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1161367655325651002006-10-21T02:03:00.001+08:002006-10-21T02:07:35.346+08:00Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1161367593991409982006-10-21T02:03:00.000+08:002006-10-21T02:06:34.010+08:00Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1160377148657966362006-10-09T14:51:00.000+08:002006-10-09T14:59:08.670+08:00great song and a super video to go along with it need i say more, its just great...listen to the lyrics and watch the video closely....ah memories, memories...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1160162482051985222006-10-07T03:10:00.000+08:002006-10-07T03:21:22.063+08:00when all else fails You turning to Him can't be that hard can it...try it its my challenge to anyoneout there...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1160021662872939052006-10-05T12:07:00.000+08:002006-10-05T12:14:22.910+08:00hahah had like a solitare marathon from 4 to like 7 in the morning coz i just couldn't sleep dunno whyDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1159759945843789562006-10-02T11:30:00.000+08:002006-10-02T11:32:25.860+08:0013 more days to unhappiness :( new school sem's gonna start ah sucksDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1159015976177493602006-09-23T20:50:00.000+08:002006-09-23T20:52:56.190+08:00rugby training +cell grps. +movie with family +3 plus am dinner +soccer at 8am the next day =a very very, VERY tired dean(highly not recommended to try)Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1158843173596278042006-09-21T20:50:00.000+08:002006-09-21T20:52:53.610+08:00sometimes u just find some happiness in misery its not a great deal of contentment but its enough to help u look on the brighter side of lifeDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1158156988429492572006-09-13T22:00:00.000+08:002006-09-13T22:16:28.566+08:00i wonder,this year , have i really been counting my blessings, and being contented with it or am i just this total pain in the ass being choosy and whiny of how things unfold. many choices i've taken i've come to regret and love at the same time, its just too complicated, its confusing me inside. i know i can't take it no longer, for i am on the brink of insanity because of the outcome and Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1157898286445747782006-09-10T22:14:00.000+08:002006-09-10T22:49:56.396+08:00the happiest man around is always the saddest man on the inside, everybody knows that , well at least i know that...i have to, its me...i look at myself and think, " dean wat a mess u are, wid all those inside thoughts"Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1157796299471273932006-09-09T17:51:00.000+08:002006-09-09T18:04:59.486+08:00well i'm finally 17 i must say haha...and yea my bday was like over 3 days haha day 1 wedenesday zhi wei derrick me and chin woo went walk walk, then we went to watch the simgapore china match haha 0-0 but yea gd experience and atmostphere , after that we went over to derrick's hosue , satyed over and yea left at 730 in the morning to rush home to get my stuff to go to sentosa. it sure was fun atDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1157451322572924202006-09-05T18:10:00.000+08:002006-09-05T18:15:22.586+08:00fRoM tHe iNsIdE oUtA thousand times I’ve failedStill Your mercy remainsAnd should i stumble againI’m caught in Your graceEverlasting Your light will shine when all else fadesNever ending Your glory goes beyond all fameYour will above all elseMy purpose remainsThe art of losing myselfIn bringing You praiseEverlasting Your light will shine when all else fadesNever ending Your glory goes beyond all Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1157186294232181962006-09-02T16:15:00.000+08:002006-09-02T16:38:14.246+08:00i knew my dad was slightly insane haha in a gd way lol...yesterday after dinner he brought me and my sis to this restaurant/bar at the top of mount faber called The Jewel Box for some after dinner treats haha and it turned out to be a very cool place with great ambience and all dimly lit and all basically a very romantic background but yea it was kinda like nice for slackin for me haha...it Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1156739103853365422006-08-28T12:21:00.000+08:002006-08-28T12:25:03.873+08:00well exams are over i'm glad, so yea 2 months of holiday probably gonna find a job and earn some cash... just found out that my holiday is till like 15 oct. so yea no church camp and watsoever.... so unfair but yea that just means camp will be more peacefull an fun for the rest... ah well just played soccer this morning and the guys are slackin at derrick's house now , after which we'll be going Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1155616951382366702006-08-15T12:37:00.000+08:002006-08-15T12:42:31.396+08:00well teh planetshakers' concert last week was awesome..and i just noticed its like 4 more days to the exams and i'm slackin in j8 mac's studyin wid zhi wei....well i'm so glad that the sem's ending, coz i can look forward to the extremely long holiday after that i hope its till like dec1st so i can go for like church camp if they decide to push it up...but well even if i can't go i guess i'll Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1154680837668602262006-08-04T16:30:00.000+08:002006-08-04T16:40:37.693+08:00all alone now in school trying to kill time omg this just sux big time... i wonder sometimes how cool it would be to just disappear like poof...imagine, no problems, no troubles, nobody finding fault wid u...just pure quietness...sure it might be boring, but i bet it'll definately be relaxing...just found out like 3 hours ago that there's FOP tonight. DAMMIT I WANNA GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1154506905474691422006-08-02T15:50:00.000+08:002006-08-02T17:18:54.573+08:00A story..i wrote out of bordemthere once was a boy named sharkie, who lived happily, in riches, with a happy family, although they didn't see eye to eye at times. Sharkie's parents were loving parents, and ment the best for sharkie.One day sharkie's dad discovered a way of earning money quickly, and it was through this very very bad thing called gambling, it was called the stock market. Sharkie'sDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1154503345890206852006-08-02T15:20:00.000+08:002006-08-02T15:22:25.910+08:00this world's just cruel...i just wanna go home that home above..Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1154396901129696012006-08-01T09:47:00.000+08:002006-08-01T09:48:21.160+08:00confidence- teddy geiger..... go listen to thatDeanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1153703538212566232006-07-24T09:08:00.000+08:002006-07-24T09:12:18.226+08:002 more weeks to the sem. exams man..just suxs i can feel the pressure.... oh GOD wun u pls just help me, give me strength,for the road i'm on is though and lonely,and the road ahead just seems to be thougher...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1152785520285099882006-07-13T18:07:00.000+08:002006-07-13T18:12:00.303+08:00well here's an addition to the many quick posts... as of now my only priorities are as such:1)GOD(most impt.)2)family3)studies4)rugbyyea and thats all, no more no less and i'm happy wid it as such.... :)Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1151763964184983982006-07-01T22:16:00.000+08:002006-07-01T22:26:04.196+08:00and so i stood there under the hot blistering 330pm afternoon sun, scared to bits, abd yet somehow excited, was i to pass the ball or run straight and crash into the opposition wall. only 2 choices yet, too mind boggling for me. yes today was my first ever full contact rugby match, for lions red, against wolf pack. the weather was vertainly a killer, but we still fought on. i was surprised to be Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1151566085848756992006-06-29T15:26:00.000+08:002006-06-29T15:28:05.870+08:00u know wat i just found out? i have one and a half months to my final exams. yea so stop complaining u blardy jc ppl...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1151311462948424062006-06-26T16:43:00.000+08:002006-06-26T16:44:22.966+08:00my dream, oh who am i kidding, i dun even dare to dream.....Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1150722485849627052006-06-19T21:01:00.000+08:002006-06-19T21:08:05.883+08:00was blog surfing around, and read a few churchies' blog on how their looking forward to year end camp and all, and suddenly this thought came to my mind, i most likely wun be able to go for church camps or any other church activity that falls during the weekday, why? coz i'm in poly. the timing of the holidays are just different, thus i'll most likely miss year end camp, luckily this year my Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1150695407419782562006-06-19T13:29:00.000+08:002006-06-19T13:36:47.433+08:00ah well finally a day in the holidays where i can just sit back and relax at home during the day...the holidays have been great so far, except for all those school projects. I guess poly really grips u and never lets u go. For now i'll just sit back and chill, and watch the birds fly by.-my God, He reigns.Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1149680600579188402006-06-07T19:40:00.000+08:002006-06-07T19:43:20.600+08:00Just one thought- perfection, the unnecessary necessity? sounds impractical, yet a major stumbling block for many...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1149217355511991852006-06-02T10:45:00.000+08:002006-06-02T11:02:35.523+08:00many of us live a lie, a lie that is self created, yet we say no to the truth, we put it in a theory, a theory so plausable, that we get engulfed by it. I say no more, no more to the lies, no more to thecover ups, its time to live the truth no matter wat it is like.A few random conclusions that i've came up with:1) love is stupid2)girls are dumb3)girls do selective hearing4)electrico rocks my Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1148965137288028932006-05-30T12:49:00.000+08:002006-05-30T12:58:57.300+08:00fly away from the problems...come on i know i can do it...fly,just fly away...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1148831219864608932006-05-28T23:45:00.000+08:002006-05-28T23:46:59.876+08:00what happens when u cry ur pain away till u have no more tears? u feel worse so bad u'll wanna die...Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1148725336697407612006-05-27T17:55:00.000+08:002006-05-27T18:22:16.710+08:00i've been tryin to persuade my parents to let me learn motorbiking at 18 since its like a year away and like its super costly to learn driving. haven't really check out much it cost to learn and how much a bike cost but yea there's like a year to do it but the important thing is to convince my parents to, its super hard since like 3 of my cousins have gotten into accidents wid motorbikes, not to Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1148453287394098512006-05-24T14:18:00.000+08:002006-05-24T14:48:07.416+08:00one comment, just one comment about myself;my self confidence is the size of a mustard seed, and for those who dunno how big a mustard seed is, its extremely small....have u ever had a fear, a fear caused by no human being, more of like caused by an incident, and that fear cripples u in one aspect of life, and u're always scared to do wat u did in that incident just because of the fear and the Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1147778380031607232006-05-16T19:15:00.000+08:002006-05-16T19:19:40.046+08:00so yea another week of poly...the project just gets more and more,not to mention homework, and expectations...plus exams are like 3 weeks from now, plus i can't go for silence and solitude...just sux man...i've just realised i've lost the motivation for life,(i emphasize motivation not will one huge difference). there's just nothin to look forward to, there used to be church to look forward to Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6030981.post-1147180513223013282006-05-09T21:09:00.000+08:002006-05-09T21:15:13.240+08:00poly is fun when u minus out all those friendship politics if ya know wat i mean....many people would agree if they understood which view point i was coming from, i mean all it takes is just one rumor or a grp of people who are willing to make ur life difficult as a grp of ppl and there u have it , a shitty life,ah well wat to do its all human dynamics i tell ya...GOD made all of us different Deanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08295957709415248557noreply@blogger.com